Starting Atkins today!

Well this is it! Ash Wednesday! The perfect day to give up something and add something better! I am starting the Atkins diet. I am terrified, terrified of not having the willpower to do this. Terrified of being so crabby and grumpy that I annoy everyone around me. Terrified of failing and staying fat!
For my whole adult life I learned that low fat is it, low carb is wacko. It's been so hard to be at all supportive of Terry and then Patti and then Karen when I am at turns worried about their health and unbelievably jealous of their success!
I still have a hard time internalizing that this ok, all the meat and fat I  want? How can that be good? Won't my cholesterol go to hell? I'll have a heart attack! Ack!
And how can I stay away from carbs? I LOVE chips and salsa! It's my go to, every day, make me feel comforted and loved snack of choice!  I routinely cook extra pasta so I can eat it for lunch and I'll usually have 2 big bows full. I love top ramen with extra peas or corn and cheese. Those whole wheat bagels…yummy! And our favorite family snack is bread and cheese or cereal and milk!
Just writing about them is making me feel bad.
So my first 2 feedings…scrambled eggs with bacon! and then for snack I had tuna mixed with some spicy ranch dressing and a dill pickle half and a cup of beef broth. I am feeling ok. To be honest I didn't feel all that great when I got up or yesterday. Not sure if it's a cold or allergies kicking in. I am just real tired and my throat hurts.
I hope I can do this…maybe some positive thinking will help!

OK, I will be able to do this! I will lose enough weight that it will help my blood pressure and cholesterol, not hurt them. I will stay full on all the tasty meats and veggies I can eat! I will lose 15 pounds in the first 6 weeks and I will lose 30 pounds by Erin's graduation!! I will keep walking and talking with my friends!

I will buy a really great dress, maybe purple, for that graduation and it will be a size 10!!! And maybe some stylish shoes!

so there it is…in black and white! I am printing this out for my Move More Eat Well album and I will work on that today! And I will post this on my blog for all to see! (of course no-one reads that so it's all good!)

Go Karen!!!!